Showing posts with label Grandad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Grandad. Show all posts

Saturday, December 3, 2011

The Pop-Pop Effect

Grams and Grandad have had a busy morning. We moved our old entertainment center out of the family room into the garage and put a for sale sign on it. We also finished getting our new television and components set up in our new tv stand. We still need to put a safety strap on the television, but I assure you it will be done before Our Little Princess and Her Highness arrive in a couple of weeks. Neither of use tends to climb on the furniture, so I'm pretty sure it'll be okay for a couple of days.


Anyway, when we sat down the recuperate from moving a very, very heavy piece of furniture, I spent my time browsing through photos. In doing so, I notice what I'm calling "the Pop-Pop effect." We seem to have a large number of pictures of Grandad holding sleeping babies. He's big, he's cuddly, and he's warm. Just kind of makes me want to curl up and sleep too.

Happy Saturday everyone. I hope you have a chance to cuddle up with someone you love for a nap.




Tuesday, October 11, 2011

It's A Big Day

Today is a big day in the Valenta household.

Yesterday, Grandad saw his cardiologist here in Corpus Christi. They discussed the results of the nuclear stress test he had last month. I am so happy to report that the results were really good. They have taken him off of Coumadin (warfarin), the blood thinner he's been on since his initial heart surgery about five years ago. He is now off of all prescription drugs except for two that keep his blood pressure and heart rate under control. The really big news is that she released him to begin exercising for the first time in a long, long time. The last two or three times they send him to a medically supervised cardiac rehabilitation program. Each time they made him stop within minutes because of irregular heart beat. We started walking tonight. Last time we tried walking, he had to tell me to slow down. If you take our 16" height difference into account, it should be the other way around. Tonight, we walked for 25 minutes, which is not very long and not very far. But we did it ... and he kept up. That's a big deal!

The other thing that happened today is that I shipped my first order from my Etsy shop. My shop has been open about two weeks and I've been eagerly anticipating my first order. When I got home from work yesterday, there it was in my inbox ... my first order. I got so excited I called my kids to tell them and I confess, I did a little happy dance. Here's my first shipment ready to go in the box.


I made a quick trip to the post office this morning and it was on its way! So, I guess I'm actually in business. That's another big deal!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Liver and Peas ... Like Mother, Like Daughter

Her Highness is five months old now and is eating baby food. As instructed by their pediatrician, they introduce one new food at a time over a period of several days before adding a new one.  This allows time for any food allergies or sensitivities to show up and be isolated quickly and easily. So far, so good.

When we were there a couple of weekends ago, it was time to introduce a new food. And the new food of the week was peas. Katy was cooking dinner so she handed me the container and asked if I would mind feeding Her Highness. She's not quite sitting up without support yet, so we put her in the Bebepod chair and set her on top of the dining room table. I'll get back to this story in a minute, but first let me give you a little background.

Flashback about 30 years to Katy at about the same age, sitting in another infant seat on another dining room table with her dad feeding her. She's been eating for a while now. As a matter of fact, back then, we started feeding babies cereal at about six weeks old. But on this day, she was about four or five months old. She had already been eating different kinds of cereals, fruits, and vegetables. We had recently introduced baby food meats, chicken, beef, pork, all ground to complete mush, with limited success. She ate them less than enthusiastically. But on this night her dad had decided that she should try liver. Yep, that's right, they actually make baby food liver. GROSS!

(As an aside here, let me just tell you that Grams doesn't eat liver. I don't like the taste and the texture is yucky. Because of my distaste for liver, I would never offer it to anyone, but especially not to my precious baby girl.)

Dad took the spoon, dipped it into the baby food jar, and gave Katy a bite. She took it on her tongue and closed her mouth. He turned around and gave me a self-satisfied look as he said "See I told you she would like it."  Just about the time he turned back around to give her another bite, Katy opened her mouth and stuck her tongue out. The spoonful of liver was still sitting atop her tongue. She proceeded to scrape her tongue across her top gums, pushing all the liver off and out of her mouth where it then plopped onto her bib. She then closed her mouth and with great determination refused to take another bite. I had to retreat to the kitchen because I was laughing hysterically and trying not to say "I told you so."

Now, back to Her Highness perched atop the dining room table in her chair. I dip my spoon into the container of baby food peas and give HH her first taste of peas. And, you guessed it, she spit it right out. I tried again, and she took it tentatively before spitting it out again. On the third bite I could tell that she was tasting it and testing it and she swallowed it. But I don't think she really liked it.


Parenting has changed a lot in the thirty or so years since Grams and Grandad were starting out with babies. Parents today seem so much more knowledgeable than we were. And there are so many more gadgets and goodies. Our granddaughters eat organic and often homemade food. We'd never even heard of organic food and, in our day, only the most fanatical moms made their own baby food.

What are the biggest changes you've seen in parenting babies?

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Updates on Grandad, the Grand-Girls, and Etsy

It's Sunday afternoon. Grandad is playing "Words With Friends" on his new HTC Evo Shift phone while relaxing in his recliner. We both made the switch to smart phones this summer and we're both addicted to "Words With Friends." If you play, hit me up for a game. My name is "v2valenta."  I've just finished watching The American President on television. It's one of my all-time favorite movies. I've seen it many times and I still love it.

Grandad is finishing up his last week of wearing a 30-day heart monitor to verify that he is no longer going into atrial fibrillation. He is still experiencing symptoms several times a week which include tightness in his chest, shortness of breath, profuse sweating, and extreme fatigue. However, several months ago when he last wore a monitor, he did not go into a-fib a single time during that 30 day period, in spite of experiencing those same symptoms. The electrophysiologist believes that these symptoms may be caused by another problem that has not yet been detected. So, on September 13, Grandad will have a nuclear stress test to see if they can find anything else.

The granddaughters are growing like crazy. Her Highness is big enough for her baby doorway jumper and she loves it. She started day care this week for the first time when her dad went back to teaching high school English after a summer of taking care of the girls. She did not seem to take right to day care and had a rough few days. You may remember that I told you she wants to be held all the time. This is still the case, and the day care ladies said she cried a large part of the day. But by the end of the week she was doing better and seemed to be adjusting.


Our Little Princess is also getting big really fast. She's big enough now to enjoy arts and crafts. She loves going to day care and spending time with all the other kids. She made the necklace that she's wearing here.


I've been busy sewing. I have an entry in the WholePort Creativity Expo. Voting is a two-step process. First you have to "like" WholePort on Facebook. Then you have to look at the entries and vote for mine by clicking "like" on the picture. Here's what my entry looks like. I would really appreciate your vote. The ten winners will each get a $50 certificate for craft supplies from WholePort. Voting is open through the end of the month.


I also made this kimono-style dress for Our Little Princess. I'm very proud of it. I think it's one of the best I've done so far.


I took two outfits for each of the girls when I visited them a couple of weeks ago. But, since I didn't take photos of the other two, I'll have to show them to you another day. I've asked Katy to send me photos of both of them.

And I have some fairly big news to share with you. For several years now, friends and family have been encouraging me to sell my homemade items. So I've been thinking about it for a while now and I've decided to take the plunge. I'm going to open an Etsy shop. I'm working on getting some stock made and I'm hoping to open it around Labor Day. I wasn't really planning to announce it yet, but Katy told all our Facebook friends yesterday, so I thought I would let my readers know today. I'll be starting out with dresses and clothing for little girls and the summer-weight cotton baby blankets that I've been making for years. I'm hoping to eventually add some items for little boys. You are also likely to see a variety of other crafty items like wreaths and such from time to time. Basically, whatever I feel like making. 

School starts tomorrow, so I'll be back to my substitute teaching gig, probably by the end of the week. The best part of substitute teaching is that I'll have lots of down time. I will be the first to admit that it's been a long summer with no income from me. It's still a few years until I'll be old enough to start drawing on my retirement. If I can get a little income from sewing and crafting, which I love to do, maybe next summer will go a little easier. 

Watch this space for an official announcement about the opening of my Etsy shop. It won't be more than a couple of weeks.

It's still unbearably hot and dry here in South Texas. We don't really expect a change in the weather until around the first of October. We've got a very busy autumn coming up with family reunions on both sides of the family, the family golf tournament and our annual Valenta wive's day out. I'll keep you informed. I hope you've had a great summer and that your fall is cool and colorful.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

News from the Medical Front

Grams and Grandad spent most of the last week in Houston. It was time for Grandad's six-month follow-up visit with his electro-physiologist and Nick was also having some medical tests. Grams was along for cooking and driving.

In the six months since his last cardiac ablation, Grandad wore a cardiac monitor which sent data about his heart rate and rhythm to the cardiologist. The doctor reported that, during that 30-day period, there was not one instance of atrial fibrillation (A-fib). There were a few times when his heart had irregular rhythm in the lower chamber, but not significant and not related to the A-fib.

That's excellent news ... but ... it does not explain Grandad's continuing issues with shortness of breath and tightness in his chest. These have been happening with increasing frequency for the past month or so. They are severe enough to limit physical activity. When they happen, he has to stop what he's doing and sit down or lay down.

After some in-depth discussion, Dr. Rahsek agreed that those may be side effects of Multaq, the medication that regulates the heart rhythm. He instructed Grandad to stop the Multaq at once and see if the symptoms go away after a week to 10 days. Then, Grandad will once again wear a 30-day heart monitor to insure that his A-fib does not return. If it doesn't, he will be released by Dr. Rahsek.

He also instructed Grandad to go back to his local cardiologist and request a new stress test. The last stress test he had was five years ago, before his initial heart surgery. The symptoms he's experiencing could be yet another different problem with his heart or it could just be side effects from the Multaq. Time will tell.

As for Nick's medical issues, he has been complaining for some time now that when he swallows he feels "something in his throat." The results of the tests he had on Friday were good. He has GIRD (gastro intestinal reflux disorder) that has caused some minor damage to his esophagus and larynx. Those problems will go away with treatment of the reflux. That part should be fine with continued treatment. During the testing to identify that problem, they discovered a growth on Nick's thyroid which will need to be biopsied. After preliminary examination by an endocrinologist, the doctor is "concerned" and has scheduled a biopsy for next week. Marie is home for the next few weeks, so I won't have to go back to Houston for these tests.

On the bright side, I'm enjoying a 5-6 day visit from Her Highness. Her family will be camping for the next few days, so we picked her up yesterday evening and will have her until Monday or Tuesday. She slept from 11 p.m. last night until after 10 a.m. and she's napping again now. It's my Grams super power ... I'm able to make babies sleep. It's a gift.

Luckily, I'm a "glass half full" kind of girl when it comes to medical issues. I choose to think everything will eventually be okay for both of the men in my life. I just can't look at it any other way.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Catching Up and A Health Update on Grandad

Grams is home several days earlier than originally planned from attending the birth of Baby Sister. Katy had none of the complications she experienced with Our Little Princess. She was up and around and feeling very good and energetic within two days. I cooked, cleaned, and held those beautiful grand-daughters to my heart's content. But I knew it was time to go. I could just sense that the newly expanded family needed some quiet and alone time. The school where Travis works is preparing dinner for them several nights this week, Our Little Princess is in day care until the end of the week, Travis' mother will arrive this weekend, and his step-mother will also pitch in. So I felt comfortable that Katy would be able to handle a few days alone with just herself and Baby Sister. I did make it clear that all she has to do is call and I can be there within three hours.

Yesterday was a very productive day, I made a roast with caramelized onions and mushrooms for dinner. I baked cookies. And, I cleaned my kitchen from top to bottom.

That kitchen cleaning was necessitated by a fruit fly infestation. It seems that while I was gone for nine days to attend the birth of Baby Sister, I left a bag of onions on the counter. One of them sprouted and the fruit flies invaded. Living in an extremely warm and moist climate, fruit flies are just a fact of life. I can usually keep them at bay by only buying enough fresh fruit and vegetables to last for two or three days. But every now and then something gets left on the counter too long and here come the fruit flies. Ridding the house of them includes cleaning every surface in the kitchen and cleaning out the drains and the garbage disposal with baking soda and vinegar. They have a ten-day life cycle, so we have to be extremely careful for the next ten days not to leave any crumbs on the countertop and not to have any food uncovered on the counter or dirty dishes at all sitting out. That part is something of a challenge for Grandad.

Today, Grams is having one of those days where I can't seem to do anything. It's not that I can't accomplish anything, I actually can't seem to do anything. I've just been watching television and checking Facebook, Twitter, and Gmail all day.  There are plenty of leftovers for dinner, so I've decided to blog for a while. That's doing something, right?

I also want to provide an update on Grandad. While I was in San Antonio for our new baby's arrival, he went to Houston for a follow-up visit with his Electro-Physiologist. The last cardiac ablation (in January) does not seem to have improved his atrial fibrillation at all. He is going into a-fib almost every day and feeling bad a great deal of the time. So, he is again wearing a 30-day heart monitor. We expect that, based on the results, he will be scheduled for a more aggressive form of ablation which will involve open-heart surgery. We don't know a lot of the details yet except that this is considered a hybrid procedure which has been pioneered by his doctor. It will involve the same kind of ablation he's already had twice which is done to the interior of the heart and accomplished through catheters and electrodes threaded from his legs up into his heart. While one doctor is doing that, another will perform open-heart ablation on the exterior of his heart. This is done with a scalpel and will create scar tissue on the outside of the heart which will, hopefully, interrupt the abnormal impulses which cause his heart to beat out of rhythm. I will provide more details as we know them. We do know that this procedure will require a 7-10 day hospital stay and then probably another week in Houston before he's released to return to Corpus Christi. We're not sure, but we think this will be scheduled in late June or July.

What else in going on? My two favorite neighbor girls will be graduating from high school in May. Katy, Aunt B, and I are hosting a High Tea in their honor. In addition, I'm working with a group of friends from the church I grew up in (Morgan Avenue Baptist Church in Corpus Christi, Texas) to put together a reunion sometime later this summer. More details on that later.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Time for an Update

I realize that I've been derelict in my blogging for the past several months. Since returning from Houston in January, I've worked almost every day which makes it hard to keep up with housekeeping, cooking, and blogging. So this morning I've decided that it's time for just a general update.

In January, Grandad had his second cardiac ablation. It takes about 90 days for the heart to heal completely after an ablation. At this point, he's nearing 60 days post op. He's been back to Houston for his 30-day check up. Everything looked good at that point, but we're still in a "wait and see" situation to find out whether an additional ablation will be necessary. The doctor says that we won't know how well it worked for a few weeks yet.

I can tell you that Grandad is not feeling much better. He continues to struggle with shortness of breath, dizziness, and extreme fatigue. He has good days and bad days. Sometimes he feels almost normal, but any slightly strenuous activity and he starts feeling bad again. Needless to say, he spends lots of time sitting in the recliner watching television and movies.

Two Sundays ago Grandad woke up with an unusual swelling in the right side of his neck. We've known for more than a year that Grandad has a benign growth on the right side of his thyroid, so we immediately thought that the swelling was related to that. He sees an endocrinologist who is monitoring that growth and he was due to see her again this spring for an annual follow up.

On Monday, the swelling was down considerably, but on Tuesday it was back so Grandad went to see his primary care physician. He sent him for a sonogram and didn't see anything new. Erring on the side of caution, he got Grandad in to see the endocrinologist within two days. She reviewed the sonogram and reported that there was no significant change in the thyroid but, again being cautious, she ordered a CT scan which took place at 4 p.m. on Friday. We went out to dinner with family, not expecting to hear anything until after the weekend.

We were eating dinner at 7:30 Friday evening when the phone rang. The caller id showed the endocrinologist's phone number. I thought to myself that, since the doctor was calling on Friday evening, it probably wasn't going to be good news. She reported that the CT scan showed a large tumor in the neck. Since Grandad had a thyroid biopsy a little more than a year ago, we know that this growth has occurred completely since then. She believes it is a fatty tumor, but more testing is needed. She referred Grandad to an ENT. We're still waiting to see when the appointment is scheduled. Hopefully, sometime this week.

Of course, I immediately started researching. From what I can tell, if it is indeed a fatty tumor, it is most likely benign. The concern is that since it is so large, it is likely pressing on other body parts in the neck. I'm wondering if this might not be the source of Grandad's shortness of breath. We shall see. I must admit, it's taken me a few days to convince myself not to panic. Once again, it is necessary to take a deep breath, say a prayer, and keep living every day.

On a happier note, our daughter Katy is nearing the end of her pregnancy. She's had a little bit more difficulty with this pregnancy in that she has been extremely uncomfortable carrying since very early in this pregnancy. She wears a support belt to help relieve the stress on her back and pressure in her pelvis. The doctor told her two weeks ago that she must slow down and take it easier. She should not be lifting heavy things (like Our Little Princess) and should avoid being on her feet for extended periods of time. But, everything seems to be going well. She's due to deliver around April 19. She's having another girl. This will be Travis' third daughter. Welcome to estrogen-city, Travis.

We've had a lot of fun playing the name-game with them. With around six weeks to go, they still have not settled on a name. Everyone has gotten into the name-game, even my mother-in-law. With a wink and a giggle, she suggested that "Esmerelda" would be a perfect companion-name to Ezra. I've thrown "Edna" into the mix (four letters, starts with E, ends with A and NO, I'M NOT SERIOUS). Some of the names I've heard them mention include Jane, June, Moira, Frances, and Parker. And those are just the ones that I remember. I don't know if there is a leading contender or not. Katy is mindful of the fact that certain names, when combined with their last name "White" sound like slang for cocaine. I try to keep my opinions and ideas mostly to myself. I don't want to alienate anyone by saying yes or no to any name. I will love this child no matter what they name her. Our Little Princess has dubbed her yet-to-be-born baby sister "Bubbles." I think that's what I'll call her on this blog.

Nick and his beautiful wife, Marie, are doing very well. Nick seems to be settling into his job as an outside salesman. He's been working for two years now to build what is virtually a new territory and is just now really beginning to see the fruits of his labor. I knew he had the personality type needed to succeed in sales, but I knew it would take some hard work and patience for it to pay off. I'm so proud of his growth and success. They don't have kids yet, but they have two beautiful dogs that they treat like children.

Ralphie, the Rottweiler, had to have knee surgery a few months ago. He's had a hard time recovering full mobility, but the vet says it should come with more time. Ralphie is such a stoic and serious dog. He's calm and relaxed most of the time. You can just tell that Ralphie is an "old soul." On the other hand, Baily is always going to be a puppy. She's more excitable and playful. Together the two of them remind me of a pair of geese Uncle Johnny and Aunt Mary Ann used to have at the farm. They go everywhere together, practically in tandem. It's hilarious.

Since the surgery, anytime Ralphie moves the wrong way, he yelps in pain. When this happens around Our Little Princess, she goes over, pats him on the head, tilts her head to one side and says "Are you alright?" It's the sweetest thing you've ever seen.

And, speaking of Our Little Princess, she's two years old. That's going to be a whole separate post coming very soon.

As for Grams, I'm doing okay. I work hard at maintaining a positive attitude and holding things together at home through all the struggles with Grandad's health. I thoroughly enjoy my monthly book club, The Book Snobs. I have always enjoyed reading and spending an evening once a month discussing a book with this diverse group is luxurious. The group has grown to eleven women. We have lively discussions and enjoy dinner and cocktails.

I still play bunco with my neighbors once a month. The group has gotten decidedly younger over the years as people have departed and new members have been recruited. This is an evening of pure fun and exuberance that I truly love. Most of the time, it's a great way to relieve stress. My good friend and next-door-neighbor, Mary Lou, and I are the official "Bunco Bitches." That means, when someone has to been tough and mean about anything related to bunco, we're usually the ones who do it. Although, my friend Brenda is willing to step up too when needed.

I also get together on a somewhat regular basis with a group of former co-workers. Every couple of months, we have dinner and drinks. We rehash the old days, keep up with each other's lives, support each other through whatever life brings, commiserate, encourage, and laugh. This is the one group that will tell you the truth when they think you need to hear it. I love them all ... okay, some more than others.

I'm pleased that I've been able to maintain my weight loss through all the stress of the past few years. I've not been successful in losing the last 25 pounds that I want to get off, but I'm hopeful that life won't always consist of moving from one medical issue to the next. We eat a high-protein, low-carb diet most of the time and keep portions under control by using salad plates for our meals. I'm hoping to get back to walking and bicycling now that Spring is here. I know that exercise is the key to long-term success and I've got to find a way to make time for it.

I continue to substitute teach three to four days a week. I do most of my work at the Middle School, but I do occasionally work at all the other schools. I really enjoy the work and the short-term responsibility. I like that someone else does the planning and has the ultimate responsibility. In Texas, the students are taking TAKS tests this week. That results in not much need for substitute teachers. I'm not scheduled to work again until Friday, so I'm enjoying the time off.

I'm also working to put together a reunion for the 1970's youth group from Morgan Avenue Baptist Church in Corpus Christi. These were the kids I grew up with and spent time with as a teenager. The church is now disbanded and we've scattered all over the world. I would rather see them again than attend another high school reunion. Hopefully, we'll get it together sometime this summer.

As you can see, life is full. We've got our ups and our downs, just like most people. As we continue on this difficult journey through Grandad's health issues, all my friends have been so supportive and, of course, I rely heavily of the support of my kids and sisters. No matter what happens medically, we'll get through it with the help of God, family, and friends. And, we'll soon have another little princess to love. Generally speaking, life is good.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Attitude Adjustment

Grandad and I arrived home from Houston late on Saturday evening. I've been meaning to write a blog post for several days, but I seem to have a bad case of the blahs.

Generally speaking, I'm not a person who gets depressed or down. But, I've just got to tell you, the last three years has kicked my butt. And, in particular, this last trip to Houston for Grandad's second cardiac ablation just about got the best of me.

Don't get me wrong. The second ablation which Grandad had last week went well. The doctors are very optimistic. They really think they may have solved the problem of continuing A-fib and flutter. We're all hopeful. But Grandad is having a much harder recovery than he did last time. He has a lot of chest pain, shortness of breath, and very little stamina. Right now we're in a wait and see mode while his heart heals.

It kind of feels like my life has become a bad country song. You know ... my mother got sick ... my husband got sick ... my mother died ... my husband got sick again ... he didn't get better ... and so on and so forth.  All I need is a pick-up truck and a guitar to complete the scenario.

I'm ready to cry uncle ... throw in the proverbial towel ... whatever. I'm done. It's time for a break. I'm exhausted and worn out. If I thought it would do any good I would open the window and shout "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it any more" like Howard Beale in Network. But other than letting off a little steam, I don't think that would accomplish anything.

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I think I've spent the past three years so focused on Grandad's health and all the other stuff that I've had to deal with that focusing on "stuff" has become habitual. It's time to develop some new habits. I need to stop focusing so much on what I can not control and focus instead on what I can control. One of the things I can control (hopefully) is my attitude. So I've decided to take a more positive approach. 

I've joined a group of my Facebook friends in finding 2,011 Gratitudes in 2011. Each one of us is consciously looking for things to be grateful for every day. And each one of us is posting our own list of 2,011 things that we're grateful for. I'm think it will make me more aware that I have many things to be grateful for. And I'm hoping that it will give me an attitude of gratitude and a brighter outlook on life.

Friday, December 31, 2010

Hope Springs Eternal

Grams is not going to review 2010. I've already done that in my Christmas letter post. Instead of looking back, I'm looking forward to a new year with hope.

On Sunday, Grandad and I will travel to Houston. We've set aside Monday for him to recover from the trip. On Tuesday, he will again become a patient at the Texas Heart Institute. Tuesday is set aside for pre-operative testing. On Wednesday, Grandad will have his second Cardiac Ablation. He'll stay overnight in the hospital then will rest in Houston until at least Saturday.

That's where the hope comes in. He had this same procedure last June and for about a month after had no atrial fibrillation and no heart flutter. Over the last five months it has become more frequent and more persistent again. The doctor tells us that this indicates that the ablation procedure will work to correct the problem, but the ablation may have to be repeated several times to achieve long-term results. The doctor also says that this time he will be more aggressive with the procedure.

I'm hopeful that this second time will be the charm. The heart has to heal six months between each ablation. That's a long waiting period if the fibrillation returns.

We'll be staying at our son's house in north Houston. I will have internet access but I'm not sure whether I'll be up to blogging or not. I will at least post an update.

As always, your thoughts and prayers will be appreciated.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Wordless Wednesday


Just like my Pop-pop!
Wordless Wednesday is a great day to post an awesome picture that “speaks” for itself, no words needed!!



Thursday, October 28, 2010

The Meatloaf Incident

I know I've told you before that I am the fifth of six children. Basically, my parents had two families; the first four and then several years later me and my youngest sister. The youngest two of us were practically raised by our eldest sister. She took care of us and the house and she often made dinner for the family from a very young age. She learned to cook long before I can remember ... and she's darn good at it. People compare her skills to those of Paula Deen and they're not wrong. Her meals are great and her macaroni and cheese is legendary.

Somehow Grams only recently learned to cook, probably because I just didn't need to learn earlier. Oh, I took homemaking in middle school and learned the basics, but as far as putting a meal on the table, I just never had to do it. When I first moved away from home, my roommate and I survived on a diet of frozen pot pies which cost 19 cents back then. Occasionally, her mom would come by and cook for us, but mostly it was frozen dinners.

As a newlywed, I did try cooking. But many of my efforts led to scorched dishes and burned pans. In my memory, the most monumental failure was meatloaf.

Now, I didn't grow up eating meatloaf. In fact, I don't ever remember eating it at home. I had only eaten it a couple of times at friends' houses. The only meatloaf I had ever eaten was the kind that is topped with ketchup/tomato sauce and I wasn't fond of it. So when Grandad requested meatloaf, I pulled out a cookbook and used a recipe for what I knew, meatloaf with tomato sauce/ketchup. And, I actually thought it came out pretty good.

Grandad, however, did not agree. He sat down at the table, took a couple of bites of my meatloaf, looked at me and said, "This doesn't taste like the meatloaf the nuns made."

I was livid and that was the end of all my cooking for a long time. Grandad took over almost all the cooking from there and it was almost 30 years before I took over again. It is known in our family as "the meatloaf incident." 

(Let me just insert here that Grandad was educated by nuns. He went to Catholic schools and even attended the minor seminary for a couple of years. But, he left the seminary long before we met. I did not lure him away from the religious life.)

A little over a year ago, our beloved parish priest died suddenly. We attended the funeral, along with many priests and nuns from our diocese. Our small church was packed. It was standing room only. About halfway through the mass, Grandad leaned over to me and whispered in my ear that the nun who made "the meatloaf" was sitting a few rows in front of us.There amid a superfluity of nuns (According to the Oxford Dictionary, that's what you call a group of nuns. I looked it up.) sat one very elderly nun in traditional habit. You could practically hear the angels singing when you looked at her.

As soon as mass was over, intending to ask for the recipe, I attempted to find her, but first I had to figure out exactly which nun she was. Not to be trite, but all nuns pretty much look alike if they're wearing traditional garb. Grandad had been recruited to move chairs from the church to the parish hall, so I was on my own. But I lost her in the crowd and never could figure out which one she was, thus missing my one opportunity to get "the meatloaf" recipe.

Since I took over the cooking a few years ago, I've made meatloaf a few times. I found a pretty good recipe that's made in the crockpot and I make it every couple of months. It's easy to make and it's easy on my budget. It's seasoned with fresh chopped onion and garlic and I use panko as filler, but it is topped with the same tomato sauce/ketchup as my old recipe. Grandad likes it okay.

Yesterday, I was tired. I just didn't feel like chopping onions and dicing garlic for meatloaf. So I took the lazy way out. I opened a package of Lipton Onion Soup mix, added a cup of panko, one lightly beaten egg, and a cup of water. I mixed it together, formed it into a loaf and put in in my crock pot on low for 8 hours. When it was done, I made instant Pioneer Nonfat Brown Gravy, to which I added a can of mushrooms, a teaspoon of garlic powder, and about two tablespoons of red wine. I served it with butter beans and broccoli. When Grandad had taken a couple of bites, he looked at me and said "This is better than the nun's meatloaf." I was so shocked, I asked him to repeat it. So he said it again, "This is better than the nun's meatloaf!"

Finally, after 35 years, my meatloaf is better than the nun's! Now if I could only make poppyseed cake like his Aunt Georgie, my life would be complete.

This post has been linked to the GRAND Social blogging event.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Update on Grandad

It's been a month since Grandad's cardiac ablation at the Texas Heart Institute. He went back to Dr. Abdi Rasekh's office this week for his one month follow up. Dr. Rasekh is the cardiologist/electrophysiologist who performed the ablation.

Overall, he is doing extremely well. Over the past month he has had occasional short episodes where he thought he might have been in atrial fibrillation. Most of these lasted on a few minutes and were not intense or severe. Only once, this past Saturday night, has he gone into full-blown atrial fibrillation and atrial flutter. It lasted about 45 minutes.

Needless to say, I was extremely disappointed to see him go back into a-fib. But, he discussed this episode with the doctor who told him that it was not at all alarming or unexpected for him to still have these episodes. One month out from the ablation is not long enough for his heart to have fully healed.

Grandad will see Dr. Rasekh again in two months. After that he will wear an event monitor for the next month and then return to the doctor's office after they receive the results from the monitor. At that time they will recommend a course of action and/or treatment. It may be necessary for him to have an additional cardiac ablation or they may be able to begin weaning him off of some of the medications he is taking to control his heartbeat. I do want to note that we knew when he had this ablation that it might have to be done as many as two or three times.

I am very encouraged by how well Grandad is doing. For the first time in more than three years, he has energy. His personality is back to normal. And his color looks healthy and pink, not the sickly gray color it has been for the past three years.

And it's very encouraging that he didn't actually have a heart attack when we recently got a copy of the hospital bill. It was $83,000 for the procedure and the one-night stay in the hospital. Thank God we have excellent insurance coverage!

We are heading to San Antonio this afternoon to spend a four-day weekend with Our Little Princess. I can't wait for her to see her healthy, new Grandad. She already has more fun with him than anyone else. The new, improved Grandad may be more excitement than she can take.

Friday, June 18, 2010

A Light at the End of a Long, Dark Tunnel - Hopefully It's Not An Oncoming Train


Woo Hoo! Grams is thrilled to report that Grandad is out of the hospital. He was released late Thursday afternoon. We are resting today at Nick's house in Houston and will return to CC tomorrow.

The procedure that Grandad had is cardiac ablation. He did not have his heart "shocked." That was one of the options that was available, but the doctors felt that it would only be a temporary solution for him.

I'm going to attempt to explain the procedure that he had. This is a summary of what I have learned from the cardiologists, the electrophysiologists , and my own research.

Normally, electricity flows throughout the heart in a regular, measured pattern. This normally operating electrical system is the basis for heart muscle contractions.

Grandad's electrical flow was having a "short circuit" that disturbed his normal heart rhythm. They tried to control this with medication. Medicine did not work. His doctors felt that the most effective treatment would be to destroy the tissue housing the short circuit. This procedure is called cardiac ablation.

He had catheters inserted through both sides of the groin into his blood vessels. The wires were wound up into the heart.

Once the catheters reached the heart, electrodes at the tip of the catheters gathered data and a variety of electrical measurements were made. The data pinpointed the location of the faulty electrical site.

Fortunately, Grandad was having an "episode" of heart flutter and atrial fibrillation during the procedure. This made it possible for the electrophysiologist to see exactly what his heart was doing. Once the damaged site was confirmed, energy was used to destroy a small amount of tissue, ending the disturbance of electrical flow through the heart and restoring a healthy heart rhythm.

The doctor reported that they had to make an unusually large amount of "cuts" in his heart to correct the short circuit. The procedure took slightly more than five hours. Because of the large amount of cuts, he has a small collection of fluid in his chest which is causing him some pain. They've given him some medication to help his body get rid of that fluid.

The extremely good news is that he has not had any atrial fibrillation or heart flutter since the procedure. They were not even able to induce an episode with medication.

He will take medication to regulate his heartbeat and keep his blood thin for the next six months. They expect to be able to start weening him off of the drugs at the end of the first three months.

I would like to thank all the folks at St. Lukes Hospital and The Texas Heart Institute in Houston. It is an amazing place where miracles happen. Every single employee I encountered there was happy and helpful. During the long wait which totaled about eight hours from start to finish, someone from the procedure room called me every two hours and gave me an update on exactly what was going on and how much longer they expected it to take. I can't begin to explain how much easier that made the wait. They even called me at 11:30 and said it was going to be at least two more hours that we should go get some lunch and they would update us when we returned. That went so far to help my peace of mind.

We are very hopeful that this procedure has put Grandad back on the road to health. Thank you all so much for holding us close in your prayers. It has been a long, hard journey. Finally, we can see a light at the end of this long, dark tunnel. Hopefully, it's not an oncoming train!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Learning to Count

Grams is aware that she writes fairly frequently about Grandad's health problems and how frustrating they have been. I will admit that sometimes it just gets me down.

The day we spent this week at the Texas Heart Institute has reminded me that it's time to learn to count again. Sometimes this quest for diagnosis and cure has seemed never ending and I've forgotten to count my blessings.

One of my favorite hymns out of the old Baptist Hymnal that I grew up using at least three times a week is "Count Your Blessings." The words were written by Johnson Oatman, Jr. in 1897. I've always remembered this hymn and have turned to these words often on nights when I'm letting bad things roll around in my head and sleep is elusive. These words have helped me find comfort in many of the difficult times in my life. Somehow, counting my blessings always helps put things in perspective. Whether I was struggling with being the mother of teenagers, taking care of my aging parents, or problems on the job, I've found comfort in counting my blessings. It's kind of the same thing that Oprah advocated in encouraging her viewers to keep a gratitude journal. It helps put life back in the proper perspective.

I thought of this old hymn on Wednesday when we spent the day at the Texas Heart Institute only to end up being sent home to wait another week. Some of the people I met and saw while waiting that day reminded me how truly blessed we are. When we walked into the very first waiting room (there are many) Grams became immediately aware of the weariness and weight that many of the people in that room were carrying. It was clear that many of them had been there many times before and quite a few of them had already been there for a long time at 6 a.m.

A Mom and her daughter were sitting across from me. The daughter was the patient and she couldn't have been more than 15 years old. It was clear that this was a place they had been many times before and would probably be many more times, if they're lucky.

I met a woman who was there with her husband who was there for his ninth surgery on his heart. She definitely knew the routine and seemed resolved to waiting again and again if necessary.

The roommate Grandad had while being prepped that morning had already survived quintuple bypass surgery and was there to have a stint put in because his arteries had begun closing again.

Then came the last roommate of the day. When they first came in I thought it was a daughter and her much older father. It turned out that she was his wife and he wasn't old, he just looked that way. You see, six weeks ago he was healthy and robust. Then his heart was attacked by an unidentified virus and within a week it was only functioning at ten percent. Three weeks ago he received a heart transplant. Every week for the next six months, they will go in through his neck and cut out a small piece of his heart to biopsy it. He told us it was no big deal. I was in awe as the nurse reviewed his medicines and his instructions and emphasized how important it is for him to carry the medicine everywhere he goes for the rest of his life. Something as simple as a flat tire or a missed bus could result in heart failure and/or death if he misses even one dose of his medicine.

I wasn't able to get the story of the most intriguing person I saw that day because the hospital is adamant about protecting patient privacy. It was a middle-aged woman who was wheeled past the doorway during our wait. She was coming out of the cath lab after having a procedure on her own heart and she was lying on the gurney wearing a hospital gown and a pair of black patent-leather high-heel shoes. I asked several nurses to see if anyone knew the story and couldn't find out anything.  But I know there's a story there. I think it was her own way of saying "I will survive!" And I must say, I like her style!

All of these stories, and the hundreds of others whom I didn't meet or see have helped to remind me that as bad as Grandad's health problems have been, it could always be worse. We are truly blessed and I'm reminding myself again today to count my blessings.
When upon life's billows
You are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged
Thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings
Name them one by one
And it will surprise you
What the Lord has done

Are you ever burdened
With a load of care
Does the cross seem heavy
You are called to bear
Count your many blessings
Every doubt will fly
And you will be singing
As the days go by

Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done
Grams is counting her blessings today and hoping you will too.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Patience is a Virtue


Grams and Grandad spent the last two days at St. Luke's Episcopal Hospital in Houston.  Tuesday was spent with Grandad having a TEE Scan and a CT Scan in preparation for a Cardiac Ablation on Wednesday.  

Yesterday we had to be at the hospital at 6 a.m.  That meant a 4:30 wake up and a drive across Houston.  We were cautioned that if we were late they would give Grandad's spot to someone else and we would have to wait until later in the day.  We arrived at St. Luke's right on time and were directed to the Denton Cooley Building of the Texas Heart Institute.  A quick ride up the "green elevators" and we emerged into the intake waiting room on the cardiac catheter floor.  The first thing I noticed were several people who looked like they'd already been there a while.  Remember, at this time is was 6 a.m.  Grandad signed in and they immediately took him back into an intake area to check his vitals.  I took a seat to begin my wait.  After just a few minutes Grandad emerged and we were assigned a room and escorted to it.

Another short wait and a nurse arrived to review medical history.  Before she even finished, someone else arrived and began "prepping" him for the procedure.  These prep rooms are tiny and hold two beds.  They were obviously originally designed as single-bed hospital rooms.  We were in this room for about 30 minutes and then Grandad was wheeled into the Cath Lab and I was escorted to another waiting room.

I was particularly struck by how thoroughly everyone in the hospital made sure Grandad knew what procedure he was going to have and that he responded with the same procedure they had on their paperwork.  At every step along the way, every person he interacted with asked the question and compared his answer with their paperwork.  They were very thorough.

After they took him in to the Cath Lab, a nurse came out told me they were beginning and gave me a password that could be used by family members to access information about Grandad.  No one would get info without that password.

At this point I left the waiting room, went down to the cafeteria and ate breakfast, then went in search of coffee.  I walked through the Texas Children's Hospital and emerged in the center of the medical center on Fannin Street.  I crossed the street and the railroad tracks and got my usual order from Starbucks.  I was probably gone 30-45 minutes all told.

When I walked back in, another waiting wife told me that a nurse had been looking for me.  I immediately thought to myself "probably not good news," but I took a seat and began to wait again.  It was just a few minutes before they rolled him out and called me over.  The nurse explained that his blood was too thin, they were going to start an IV drip of Vitamin K and attempt the procedure again at 2 p.m.  They took him back to another small room and told me to wait there with him, the doctor had been paged and would be in to talk to me.  Then we really began waiting.   At this point, I called my kids, explained to them that the procedure had been postponed until 2 o'clock and told them to get some sleep.  Katy and Travis had driven in from San Antonio after she got off work at 9 o'clock and Nick had waited up for them.  I knew they needed some sleep.

We waited and no one came in and hung the bag of Vitamin K.  After an hour I went to the nurses station and asked about it.  I explained that I didn't want to be a nag, but we were on a tight time schedule with the doctor hoping to perform the procedure at 2 o'clock.  They sent in the charge nurse who told me that they were still waiting for it to come up from the pharmacy. Then, literally about two minutes later a nurse came in and hung the bag.  The doctor still did not come, so we waited.

At 1:30 the surgical nurse came in and drew blood to test it again.  Around 2:15 the doctor finally came to talk to us.  He explained that he could do the procedure but he would not be comfortable because Grandad's blood was still too thin.  He explained that, while the risk is small, it's higher than he likes.  If Grandad started to bleed out during the procedure after having both blood thinners and vitamin K, the only thing he would be able to give him is frozen blood plasma which would increase the risk of clotting.  Blood clots are the number one risk of this procedure.  A blood clot would almost certainly lead to a stroke.  The doctor indicated that he would prefer to adjust Grandad's medicines and wait until next week for the procedure.  But he left the ultimate decision up to us.  If we said go, he would perform the procedure.

Grandad and Grams had a quick huddle.  This was a difficult decision.  We live three and a half hours away and Grandad had already taken off work.  But most of all he had already waited a month to get on the doctor's schedule.  During that month, he felt horrible most of the time.  He would have preferred to go ahead with the procedure in spite of the higher risk just to get it done and start feeling better.  I preferred to err on the side of caution.  I really wished my kids had been there to join the discussion, but I knew in my heart that they would feel the same way I did.  So the decision was made; we will wait.

We are comfortably ensconced in a bedroom at Nick and Marie's beautiful home in Northeast Houston and here we'll stay until next Wednesday, when we'll repeat our early morning drive to the hospital.  He's on the schedule again for 6 a.m.  Hopefully, we'll get a different outcome next time.

As my good friend Diane reminded me, "Patience is a virtue" and "If at first you don't succeed ..."

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

The Countdown Has Begun

Yesterday Grandad saw the Interventional Cardiologists in Houston.

We arrived at the appointment about 45 minutes early and actually got in early.  Over the next three hours, Grandad was examined by three different doctors; his vitals were taken; he had an EKG and blood drawn.  In addition he was generally poked and prodded by all three doctors.  Their conclusion was what we already knew, Grandad's heart is in atrial fibrillation.  In addition, his heart is in "full flutter."  Both of these are caused by a small area of electrical abnormalities in the upper chambers of the heart. 

They consulted with each other and then presented several options for treatment. 

The first choice is to try a different medication.  They explained that the medication he's been taking, Amiodorone, is considered the "big dog" of medications that regulate heartbeat.  If Amiodorone doesn't work, none of the others is likely to work, but they are willing to try something else if that's his preference.

The second choice is to shock the heart with paddles to restart his heartbeat.  After this procedure he would be required to continue taking the same medication to control his heartbeat.  This procedure works for some people, but is considered a short-term solution.  They do not believe this is a good option for Grandad.

The third choice, and the one they recommend, is cardiac ablation.  Cardiac ablation involves ablating specific areas within the left atrium near the openings of the 4 pulmonary veins which are the blood vessels that deliver oxygenated blood from the lungs to the heart.  The ablation is performed using a heart catheter through the arteries in both legs.  It can take as long as 4-5 hours and may have to be repeated 2-3 times for full success.   There is a slight (1-2%) chance of stroke.  The success rate for cardiac ablation is around 80%.

They did not discuss a heart pacemaker with us, although through research we know that it is the treatment of last resort.

We chose the cardiac ablation treatment and asked to be scheduled as soon as possible.  The first available date is Wednesday, June 8 at the Texas Heart Institute at St. Luke's Hospital in Houston.  He will have to be in Houston on the 6th or the 7th for preoperative testing which includes trans-esophageal echo-cardiogram (TEE) to assess the heart function and, specifically, to look for blood clots.  Any evidence of blood clots around the heart will result in cancellation of the procedure. The doctors must also make a complete map of his heart before surgery.  Once the procedure is complete he will stay in the hospital overnight and, if all goes well, will be released the next day but expected to stay in Houston for a few days. 

We are relieved to finally have a diagnosis and a plan for treatment.  But we were both disappointed that an earlier date is not available.  We have asked to be notified in case any time opens in the schedule.  They indicated that they do occasionally have cancellations and put him on the list to fill any slot that may open up. 

I appreciate the fact that a "panel" of doctors looked at the evidence and presented the options.  I'm a firm believer in the old adage that two heads are better than one.  I also appreciate them giving us the final say in the choice of treatment.

We are home tonight and tired but hopeful.  It feels good to finally have a plan.  Now we start the countdown.  As always, we appreciate your prayers.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Hope Springs Eternal - But It's Getting Harder

Grams is always hopeful about Grandad's continuing health struggles.  In case you don't know the back story, you can read it here.  Every time he sees a new doctor, my hope rises.  So far, only to be dashed after a little time passes.  But, hope springs eternal ... and Grams tries to always be upbeat, positive, and hopeful. 

His issues with atrial fibrillation (A-fib) seem to be increasing.  Rarely does a day go by that Grandad does not have tiredness, faintness, weakness, shortness of breath and sometimes confusion.  These are only his major symptoms, he has others from time-to-time.

If you've read his back story, you know that since his problems began more than three years ago, he as seen at least 11 doctors.  We recently approached his primary care physician about the possibility of getting a second twelfth opinion.  We asked for a referral to a major medical center where we might possibly get a more definitive diagnosis.

He was very gracious and admitted to being stumped by Grandad's continuing symptoms.  He even apologized for letting this go on so long without being more proactive in looking for a resolution.  He reported that he has numerous patients who live with A-fib without major quality of life issues.  He then consulted with Grandad's local cardiologist and together they have referred him to Dr. James Wilson in Houston.  Dr. Wilson practices interventional cardiology. 

According to Grams' research, interventional cardiology refers to various non-surgical cardiovascular procedures. Interventional cardiologists use catheters to get inside blood vessels for diagnostic tests or to repair damaged vessels or other heart structures, often avoiding the need for surgery.

We will travel to Houston on Mother's Day.  Grandad will work out of his Houston office on Monday and Tuesday.  Late on Tuesday afternoon we will see Dr. Wilson for the first time.  We have been told to be prepared to stay a few days after that visit in case he decides that a procedure will be done. Fortunately, our son and daughter-in-law live in Houston and we'll be able to stay comfortably (and free) with them.  They'll also be able to sit with me if a procedure is called for. 

We have discovered through our own research and discussion with his doctors that there are a number of procedures that might be used to put Grandad's heart back into sinus rhythm.  Some possibilities include delivering a mild shock via electrodes inserted through a catheter, restarting the heart with a defibrillator, or inserting a pacemaker.  We really don't know if any of these would resolve his issues or not.  Some of his doctors have been very frank in saying that they don't think it would help.  Others say maybe. 

As always, we would appreciate your prayers.  Hope springs eternal .. but it's getting harder!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

How Many Doctors Does It Take?

This is a long story; there's no way to make it short. Grams has reached a point where my frustration is overflowing this morning. My close friends already know this story, so if you're tired of hearing it, just skip today's post. I'm hoping that just writing it down will be cathartic.

Shortly after Christmas in 2006 Grandad came down with a bad cold that he just couldn't shake. By the end of January, it had become full blown bronchitis with a cough that just wouldn't quit. Especially at night, he would be wracked with coughing. He went to his general practitioner (doctor number 1) and was given antibiotics and cough syrup. He got better, but still had trouble with coughing at night.

At about this time I noticed that Grandad's occassional snoring had turned into a nighttime wheeze. At my insistence, Grandad visited my ENT (doctor number 2). Doctor number 2 did some x-rays, ran some tests, and started Grandad on an asthma medication with instructions for him to return for a follow up in a few weeks. While taking the asthma medication, the wheeze began to show up occasionally in the daytime, particularly after exertion. After more testing and a change in medications, doctor number 2 reported that Grandad's problems did not seem to be asthma nor allergies. He then sent Grandad off with a referral to a pulmonologist (doctor number 3).

Doctor number 3 got him in quickly, I think it may have even been the next day. He really took the time to talk with Grandad to try to understand what was going on. He listened to Grandad's chest and told him that wheezing at night is almost always indicative of a heart valve problem. He immediately referred Grandad to a cardiologist (doctor number 4).

The cardiologist scheduled him for an echo cardiogram within the next day or so. The technician began the procedure and almost immediately stopped and went to get the doctor. I was not with Grandad at this appointment, but he called me as soon as it was over and told me that he wasn't sure what had happened, but he knew it was not good.

The next day, doctor number 4 called and scheduled a heart cathertization for early the next week. This required day surgery and Grandad's first visit to the hospital. Enter doctor number 5, the cardiologist who actually performed the heart cath. The heart cath showed that Grandad had ruptured cords in his mitral valve and resulted in an overnight stay. The next morning they performed a procedure (I don't remember what it's called) where they ran a camera down Grandad's throat to look at his heart.

Results were conclusive that the cords of the mitral valve were indeed ruptured and the mitral valve would have to be either replaced or repaired. Doctors number 3, 4 and 5 conferred and concluded that repair was preferable to replacement. Since that is not done in Corpus Christi, later that day, he got a referral to doctor number 6, Dr. Gerald Lawrie, a world-famous heart surgeon at Methodist Hospital in Houston. Dr. Lawrie is the surgeon who later repaired Barbara Bush's heart valve.

We arrived in Houston a couple of days later prepared for heart surgery. We began at the surgeon's office with a quick (and I do mean quick) meeting with doctor number 6. He reported that he would repair the mitral valve using the DaVinci procedure which is a revolutionary new robotic procedure. It's less invasive than the traditional open-heart procedure and usually has a shorter recovery period.

When we left doctor number 6's office, we went directly across the street where Grandad did pre-admission check in. The next few days are kind of fuzzy for me, I think surgery was two days later. I do know that there was enough time for Grandad's mom and brothers to drive in from various points around the state. Our son was living in Houston, so I had a place to stay and, of course, our daughter came in from San Antonio.

The day of surgery started off with a phone call from Grandad reporting that they were taking him into the pre-op area about two hours earlier than anticipated and that we should come to the hospital "now." We threw on our clothes and dashed to the hospital in time for a quick visit before they took him into surgery.

We moved to the cardiac surgery waiting area where we passed the next 14 hours or so. Methodist Hospital is an amazing hospital. They do an excellent job of patient care and they are also very conscious of the care needed by the patient's family and friends. The cardiac waiting area is staffed all day long by volunteers who make sure each family gets regular updates on their loved one. And ... they have their very own Starbucks right in the hospital ... something that endeared them to Grams.

As the day went on we got occasional updates ranging from reports that everything was going well and they were actually ahead of schedule to no updates at all. We heard other family groups get reports that their loved one was finished and doing well. We watched as they hugged each other and left the waiting room. We sat silently as one family got the news we all dreaded. And we waited.

Sometime around 3 p.m. my nerves got the best of me and that feeling of impending doom set in. I tried hard to keep my spirits up, but by this time we were no longer getting any updates at all. I was convinced that something terrible was happening. Sometime around 5 o'clock the volunteers left for the day. And we waited. We tried playing cards to distract ourselves. It was not fun so we finally quit. And we waited. We were left with only one or two other families, none of whom had been there as long as we had. We saw new families come and go as their loved ones had emergency surgeries and still we waited. Friends and co-workers dropped by throughout the day. And we waited. Sometime around 7, someone came out and reported that he was out of surgery and the doctor would be out to see us soon. We spoke with the doctor standing in a corner of the Cardiac ICU.

He explained that the surgery had taken longer than expected because the instruments were not long enough. Because Grandad is 6'5" tall, he had to make adjustments and compensate for instruments that simply would not reach where they needed to go. The report was that he had replaced all the cords in the mitral valve with titanium cords and had placed a ring around the valve to assist with its function. He further instructed all the male blood relations who were present to see their doctors as soon as possible, because the weak cords in Grandad's mitral valve is a congenital problem and it's likely that other male family members have them. He reported that we would be able to see Grandad in about an hour.

(The actual amount of time that he was in surgery has been disputed by the doctor. I know that they took him to surgery sometime between 7 and 9 a.m.; it was sometime between 10 and 11 a.m. when the volunteer told me that they were ahead of schedule; and Dr. Lawrie did not come out until around 7 p.m. I believe he was under anesthetic for about 9 hours. Dr. Lawrie says it was only 4. Either way it was a long time.)

At this point, the rest of the family left the hospital and headed for their homes. All of them had to drive several hours. Grams, Katy and Nick began making phone calls to report Grandad's status to other family and friends. Hours passed and we heard no more from the recovery room.

Sometime around 10 p.m. enough was enough. The desk in the waiting room had been unmanned for hours and we had heard nothing since our talk with Dr. Lawrie around 7 p.m. Nick got up, walked across the waiting room, opened the ICU door, walked right up to the desk and said something like this. "My mom has been here since 6 a.m. The doctor told us at 7 that it would be about an hour before we could see him. I need to take my mom home. So, I need you to check on his status and let me know whether we can see him or not. Either of those is fine, but I need to know now. We've waited long enough."

The answer was that of course we could see him now. However, they did and said nothing to prepare us for what we would see. He was not awake yet and was not breathing on his own. My grown son took one look, shook his head to say "no" and headed back out the door. My daughter was a rock. She stood there holding me up while we both tried to be brave. It was one of the most difficult things I've ever done. We only stayed a few minutes.

When we returned to the waiting room to gather our things and leave, one of the other ladies who had been waiting came over and hugged me. She explained that her husband was undergoing his 5th heart surgery. She also expressed concern that the hospital staff had not prepared us to see a post-surgical heart patient. She took a few minutes and explained to us that what we had seen was totally normal and nothing to be upset about. I didn't get her name, but to this day I sincerely appreciate her kindness and comfort.

We went home and tried to sleep. The next day we began scheduled visitations in the CICU. Two of us were allowed in for 10 minutes once every four hours. He remained there for 3-4 days. He had been under anesthesia for so long that he had a lot of trouble waking up. When he was awake, he was not lucid. He did not know where he was or what day it was. Sometimes he didn't know us.

It seems that when you are a world-famous heart surgeon, that's all you do. We did not see Dr. Lawrie on a regular basis after surgery. His patients were assigned to nurse practitioners and staff cardiologists for follow up care while hospitalized. Enter doctor number 7. I don't even remember his name, but he reminded me of Jafar, the grand vizier from Disney's Aladdin. You couldn't hear him coming and he was difficult to understand. But he was the doctor who came by the hospital daily to see Grandad.

Once Grandad woke up and was moved to a semi-private room, his recovery was quick. Within a few days we were on our way home and his care was turned back over to his local doctors (doctors numbers 3 and 4).

Where do I go from here. Initially, Grandad's recovery seemed uneventful. To my delight his nighttime wheezing was gone. He seemed to be on the mend and we thought he would soon be as good as new. However, he soon began to have chronic pain in the right side of his chest and sometimes he was short of breath. His blood pressure fluctuated and sometimes he had bouts of dizziness and/or excessive sweating. He also had no stamina and could not do anything strenuous. This continued through the summer and he was referred to a pain management specialist (doctor number 8). He has taken a wide variety of pain medications off an on since surgery. None of them gave him relief.

Our frustration has been that often when he got to the doctor's office, nothing would show up. They never saw what was happening. Usually, by the time he got to the doctor's office everything seemed fine. No one ever actually said it to us, but I think they thought he was a hypochondriac or drug seeking. At one point they sent us back to Dr. Lawrie in Houston who met with us, listened to us and then told us that recovery was just going to take more time. We were pissed off to say the least. We had driven several hours to see him and he just blew us off. No tests, no examination, nothing he couldn't have done over the phone.

In October of 2007, approximately 9 months after his initial heart surgery, Grandad woke up one morning and could not breathe without excruciating pain. We met the doctor at his office on a Saturday morning. In addition to pneumonia, he was diagnosed with a "crust or scab" covering the outside of his left lung. He was admitted to Christus Spohn Shoreline Hospital and we met doctor number 9, a cardio-thoracic surgeon.

Coincidental to this hospital admission, my mother was in another local hospital dying of kidney failure. By the time they recommended surgery, she had slipped into a coma and it was clear she would not survive more than a day or so. When the surgeon recommended that Grandad have surgery to clean out his chest, I asked if it could be postponed a week so I could go bury my mother. The answer was an emphatic no. Surgery was indicated as soon as possible. My mother died within hours and he actually had surgery on the same day she was buried some 500 miles away.

The surgical procedure was called a thoracotomy. This is one of the most painful operations a person can have. As with the initial heart surgery, it took several hours longer than anticipated. The incision runs across his back and down to his right side. Recovery was long and extremely painful, but we were hopeful that they had found the source of his pain and that we would soon be feeling better. Unfortunately, this was not the case.

A year later, the frequent trips to the doctors continued because Grandad still did not feel well. Nick and Marie were soon to be married and they were all home for a bridal shower. When Grandad woke that morning he could not breathe without a lot of pain. He finally called his internist/pulmonologist who instructed him to come to the hospital. We woke Nick and had him take Grandad to the hospital while we went on with the shower. This time was different. When he walked from the ER entrance to the triage room, his blood pressure plummeted and he became very short of breath. Needless to say, they admitted him.

As Hurricane Ike bore down on the Texas coast, Grandad underwent a battery of tests, x-rays, scans, etc. in Christus Spohn Shoreline Hospital. He received two rounds of IV antibiotics because he had a persistent fever. During this hospitalization we met doctors number 9 and 10 who were brought in for consultations. The hospital was evacuated with the exception of Grandad and three or four other patients on the telemetry floor. It was eerie to be in an almost empty hospital. He was sent home on Thursday after five days in the hospital with no diagnosis. They never identified the cause of the fever, but he felt better by the time he went home.

Once again, it didn't last. After only a few weeks all the same symptoms returned. Generally, he just feels like crap and can barely perform the most mundane physical activity. In the past three years he has taken a wide variety of drugs for high blood pressure, blood thinners, and pain. He has also seen doctors number 11, 12 and 13 ... two of them are neurologists, one in Houston and one in Corpus Christi ... the other is an endocrinologist in CC. They have determined that he has an enlargement on one side of his thyroid and a pocket of fluid on the other side. They are continuing to monitor the thyroid and a follow-up visit is scheduled for later this month.

Last week, the pain in his chest again became unbearable. This time the diagnosis was pleurisy, an inflammation of the lining of the lung. He was given two steroid injections and told to take Tylenol.

Yesterday he called his cardiologist to follow up regarding a change in medication suggested by his internist/pulmonologist. This morning, when her nurse called him back to follow up, she suggested that perhaps he should go to the Mayo Clinic. He immediately said no, that it would be too far and too expensive to go there.

Grams is convinced that this is exactly what he needs to do. There is no doubt in my mind that it would be the right thing to do. In fact, I've been hoping for exactly this referral. Hence my extreme frustration today. While I understand his concerns about the cost, what really matters to me is him getting well.